ephemeral

it's a strange feeling

you work for something for so long, obsess over it and then it happens. 

we cross a finish line, however that looks. suddenly it's just quiet and I always expect to feel different. success is nice but it fades in the same way that failure does and they both are more similar than we realize. 

both are essential, if we are being honest with ourselves. 

everything passes. 

the only thing that really stays is the work. the process. whatever talent we think we have, it fades. so i have learned I cannot afford to sit back and reminisce much.

I never want to lose myself while chasing moments. I just want to lose myself in the momentum and i'll acknowledge the highs with gratitude. 

ultimately it's time to get back to it. the same drive, this is just the next step. being present right now.