relaunch was subtle. cleaned all the "old" away. washed and gave away all the worn shoes of the spring and summer. stared at a bare rack with a single pair of trainers now in place. placed a small goal on the horizon to keep some focus upon.
managed to motivate before the sun peaked over the butte this morning. it was light out, but i couldn't see the bulb just yet. sat out on the back porch watching tee tee eat grass, sipping coffee and listening to the smooth rhythm of g love's blues music causing the head to bob and the motivation to awaken.
took to the bark for an hour. spent the first 20 minutes feeling out how weird it was to run again and do a "damage assessment". turns out i'm still in pretty good shape and the flow returned quite easily. back to the car for some long, deep stretching. ducks quacking at the pond, sprinklers watering the beautiful grass, river flowing by.
i didn't miss running. this was what i missed. this is why i started back up.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Friday, September 5, 2008
exocet
clinging to an ideal here.
read words that hit awfully close to home. i mentioned a broken heart in my only thoughts on the subject, but the feeling lingered and finally ground me to a halt at the end of july. my running clothes have sat clean and folded in the drawer, except for a few night runs where sleep escaped me, i have not partaken in awhile. you can call it many things. i was asked recently if i was just "burnt out" and knew instantly that was not it. it was an emotional heart break that eventually crept into my mind and my spirit and manifested itself physically. i have felt it before and fought it...this time, i recognized it. acknowledged it. it's lingered a bit and seems to be ready to move on. if there are a 12 steps to this process, i don't know which number i am on, but it's healing is taking shape.
moving along.
rode with carl out of town yesterday on his round trip return to the east. he managed to get from boise to the coast, then segway back here for a day at crater lake before departing via the willamette valley scenic bikeway. his plans were going to put him through the columbia river gorge before heading southeast. godspeed, minister of the moustache. it was good having you here.
fall signals football for most. for me, it's a rededication to the local music scene. celebration of my berf on erf comes with a mic check one, two, three
read words that hit awfully close to home. i mentioned a broken heart in my only thoughts on the subject, but the feeling lingered and finally ground me to a halt at the end of july. my running clothes have sat clean and folded in the drawer, except for a few night runs where sleep escaped me, i have not partaken in awhile. you can call it many things. i was asked recently if i was just "burnt out" and knew instantly that was not it. it was an emotional heart break that eventually crept into my mind and my spirit and manifested itself physically. i have felt it before and fought it...this time, i recognized it. acknowledged it. it's lingered a bit and seems to be ready to move on. if there are a 12 steps to this process, i don't know which number i am on, but it's healing is taking shape.
moving along.
rode with carl out of town yesterday on his round trip return to the east. he managed to get from boise to the coast, then segway back here for a day at crater lake before departing via the willamette valley scenic bikeway. his plans were going to put him through the columbia river gorge before heading southeast. godspeed, minister of the moustache. it was good having you here.
fall signals football for most. for me, it's a rededication to the local music scene. celebration of my berf on erf comes with a mic check one, two, three
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